"these words are my own from my heart and soul: i love u, i love u, i love u" (Natasha bedingfield - these words)

as kristen saysL "i hate boys" hahah. i should just leave them all alone. all of them.so this is my last weekend here. wow. strange

"no no no no baby no no no no dont lie" (black eyed peas -  dont lie)

i just cant wait to go and start it all over. and i will stay not trusting dudes. like i thought. what if there was a dude i was talking to, and we like hung out and liked each other and all. then valentines day he wouldnt call cuz he would b with someone else. thats the kind of things guys do. thats y i dont trust them. i expect things like that from the start. i love david banner's new song. so yeah they r nice and cool to talk to and all but i dont think i can believe ne thing they say. so thats all

"chillin in the club with my b-boy stance" (cassidy - b-boy stance)

i love cassidy. something about him is so..... so cool. he is the coolest. heheh

"your voice is so happy, like eating skittles" (IM)

haha thats a cute quote. awwww. well wow im leaving next week. it will b all good. im all excited. ive been shopping but i still need to go shop more. i need like sweaters and stuff. i went shopping yesterday. got a purse, shirt, capris, shoes, 3 earings, a necklace and a hair thing. i love assesories so much. i love earings. school should b interesting. all the freshmen r all excited and planning parties on facebook. kinda strange but o well.

im out

" my head is saying: fool forget him but my heart is saying: dont let go.." (olivia newton john - hoplessly devoted from the grease soundtrack)

so soon its comming so soon and i cant wait. i really cant. but i still need to go shopping and get lots of clothes and school stuff. ive been getting a lot of assesories lately. i love them. like on my break im at wet seal or H&M spending not more than $5 on earings or something. o well. im chilling, waiting to leave. cant wait. i dont think KS likes me ne more. o well. i want to do something different con mi pelo. maybe no more straightning. i kinda want to do kinky twists. something natural and earthy looking. haha. or just cut it all off and start over. maybe i should go get the grease soundtrack. im tired of not having real cds. i have sooo many burnt ones. im prolly just gonna take my real ones to college. and maybe some of the great fake ones. hmmm. i cant wait. it must b so fun to live in california. and people who have office jobs that just sit around all day, online r lucky. and thats all

" feels like im going in circles. your like a  maze i cant get thru" (janet jackson - i want you)

its funny how when u r about to go to college u just really want to go...... that sounds dumb. but its like, i really just cant wait. its like my life is about to begin and this summer im just sitting around... well working and chillin and waiting for my life to begin. i cant wait. i just want to start over i guess. leave everything behind. its always nice to start over. hmmm its just a strange feeling this summer. i dont know y. im really happy. im not in love with dude ne more. wow. i said that for real. i dont think im in love with JS ne more. hahaha thats funny. "i fell out of love" but i dont know. i still care and want him to b happy and all but i just dont care if we never talk again. hmm. i dont care if he doesnt call ne more. and i dont think i like km ne more. hes cool and all but i guess im over it. i dont know i just want to b happy and chill this summer i dont want to trip or like ne one that will make me trip. i guess thats how i do. thats how ive been doing. drop ne one the minute the disapoint me. well not like that exactly. ok im yanning now so im out

" and everything went from wrong to right, it was love at first sight" (kylie minogue - love at first sight)

"so please hold your head up high" (talib kweli - black girl pain)

its been fun. ive been happy. so friday we went down to tech. when we got there we went to see our uncle and his beautiful kids. they r sooo cute. even tho they can b rugrats. we got there and me and uche went upstairs to c the kids. and there they were. three girls in the bathtub taking a bath with their barbie dolls. wow. it just brought me back to when i was a kid. me and my two sisters, in the bathtub with our barbies. so cute. there r 4 of them. 4 girls just like in my family. they r mos def going to have fun. they r so cute. so we watched michael jackson videos. and the cute little 2 year old was all doing the dance moves. it was the cutest thing ever. then we had pizza and then went over to my sister's house, got wrappers and went to play soccer. well... we watched ada play soccer with a bunch of people while me and uche sat on wrappers watching looking like girlie girls with my feather earings. hahah. then after that we went back to ada's house, uche and ada went to rent movies (they got like 6: johnson family vacation, hide and seek, cinderella story, mrs congeniality 2, sleepover and coach carter). so after that me and ada got ready to go out. we had to leave uche home cuz a 13 year old cant b going out like that. awwww. so me and ada went over to some dudes place and chilled for a while with a bunch of other girls, then we went over to the club. it was ok. ada was all trippin when i danced with O. he's cute and he all likes me. cute. so after that we went back to the dude's house and ate. and it was all late then we went home, ada did uche's hair real late then we slept. the next day was fun. us three sisters went to get our nails done then we went shopping then to the pool. it was so fun and relaxing i loved it. then we came home, had dinner with mom then we had to leave poor uche home again and go to the club. after the club ada's friends house to eat. haha. sunday we woke up and cleaned her room and kitchen, uche and ada went shopping and left me alone to paint my toe nails while watching cinderella story (it was good). then they came home, mom came and we had to head over to UVA. so we got to charlotesville, checked into a hotel and went to a really good buffet, went home, slept. the next day i got my things for my orientation. orientation..... it wasnt as great as i expected. in fact it was really boring. i met some people.... well i met a whole bunch of people but only remember a few names. i hung out with one girl most of the time. she was cool. ify came and took us to some of her friend's places so that was cool. well im still excited about school. i just hope i have friends and get great grades. i was kinda upset cuz i didnt get the classes i wanted. but im still gonna try to get them. some dudes r getting attached i think. its kinda strange i dont know y they like me so much. maybe it has something to do with the fact that i am toooo hot. hahah just playin. ne way. so i talked to JM. and i felt bad cuz he was all sad and i dont want him to b all sad while im all happy. so ill talk to him once in a while but it is still over over over. got my paycheck yesterday and went shopping. it was fun. ooo H&M is great. i got great jeans for only like 15 bucks.  and then i got 5 thongs for only like $8 and then i got this great scarf for like $4 and a hair thing for $3. i was really happy. i think im gonna go back and get like 2 more jeans and shirts. i need stuff for school 4 sure. wow sooo soon. this summer is going so fast. soon ill b sitting up all night unable to sleep cuz the next day will b aug 20, move in day. wow. uche cried after my orientation cuz shell miss me. aww poor baby. ill prolly cry too.